Often times I reflect on my life now as a mom to 4 living children, 2 heaven-bound children. If I could go back and change a few things, these would be at the top of my list. Perhaps my experience could be helpful for you to not make the same mistakes.
1. Breastfeeding is insanely difficult and it does not come naturally. I struggled so much with my first child and I ended up giving her formula. That inability to provide the best nutrients for my daughter made me feel like an utter and complete failure!
2. Thinking I was a failure did not make it true. It meant I loved her unconditionally and I did not want to mess her up. I was doing my best and that was OK!
3. Looking back, I wish I did more research on types of births, medications, and shots given at birth as well as way beyond that. If I had known taking my daughter with chronic ear infections to a chiropractor would avoid putting her under anesthesia to get tubes, I would have easily done that. Our second daughter had the exact same issue and was always on antibiotics, we took the route of chiropractic and it enhanced her healing naturally. We haven't needed any antibiotics ever since.
For many years I was angry with myself and not in any way content with my ability to be a mother. I knew I loved her and knew I was doing what I thought was best (at the time). I had to learn to forgive myself. Now, six kids later, I know doing my best is enough.
I encourage you to believe your best is enough. God did not make a mistake making you a mom. He chose you. Which also means you have the ability to provide the absolute best. Whatever mistakes we make as a mom define us and make us better. You are a great mom, do not forget it.
xoxo Sara
